Finished in July 2018

Procrastination

By Zac Langridge

Another homemade photo from my own camera specially for
this blog (I'm starting to get into photography).

Oh how I hate procrastination!

Oh how I love procrastination!

But I don’t

I don’t love it

I hate it

I hate it!

I consider myself to be a writer

And as a writer

It is my bane

My worst nightmare

I tell myself “You should write”

I tell myself “You haven’t wrote in ages!”

And my morality starts to cry out

But I don’t respond

That is what procrastination is:

A blank wall in my mind

An invisible force field

A spotless piece of paper

Just waiting for the pencil to descend

I fight it

Mentally

I kick and scream

I claw and bite it

I gnaw on my fingernails

I ponder over ideas and stories

Endless possibilities

Endless dreams

That just won’t materialize

I wait

And wait

And wait some more

I long for the times where everything flows out

Where ideas are endless

My imagination, boundless

My limit knows no ends

Where I can envision a world

A character

A tale to tell

And can become once again

An artist

Telling that story

And don’t have to sit

And wait

And torture myself

By bleeding ideas

But never crafting them

But I procrastinate when it comes to everything

Everything

And it’s just terrible

It’s a mental disorder

A disease

A plague that infects the mind

“You need exercise”

Your mind screams

“You need to do something worthwhile”

“Write, walk about, talk to someone”

“Just stop wasting your life!”

And yet I don’t

And that’s why I hate procrastination

Because it gets in the way

Of not just my passion

But my life

I hate it

And yet I love it

I love it

Because I can sit

And wait

And ponder

And craft stuff in my head

Leave my imagination to brew

Let me reach out

And grasp at stories, and characters

And worlds of my own

Procrastination is beautiful

Because I can act as though everything is alright

And I can imagine myself

In a world where I don’t procrastinate

In a world where I’m happy

And I follow my passions

Where I’ve fought the invisible wall

And won the battle

And I’ve finally written a book

And a sequel, too

Which are critically acclaimed

And have made an eye-opening impression on others

That is what I love about procrastination

Because

To put it bluntly

It is bliss!

It’s a terrible

Torturous

Life-destroying

Bliss